黄金时代 看ing

王小波这家伙有点儿意思 我喜欢

在杜拉拉之后 这又是一本拿起来放不下的书 不错不错

 

昨天买了个木瓜 好甜 但是不经吃呀

要是木瓜能长的跟西瓜一样大就好了 哇哈哈

 

经历了一个夏天的躁动不安 我终于想开始自己的实验了

这着实是可喜可贺的！！

 

下周去山东 就是爱出差 爱出差的干活

不读万卷书 也可以行万里路嘛

我喜欢直接经历远远大于间接经验

 

回家的时候 爸爸又对我传道授业了
他最近迷国学 我也跟着沾光 很好的还是

 

宿舍终于不是2个人了

搬来一个会笑得很开心的女孩儿 研三 今年毕业

 

要去百花山了 好喜欢

貌似要先闯过开题这刀山

bite me！！！

 

 

今天去看奶奶 上次还是端午节去的呢

六姨说今天也是端午 今年两个端午

 

觉得奶奶老了好多 走路蹒跚了

爷爷也是 眼神不想从前那么炯炯有神了

老人家都80多了

希望爷爷奶奶过90大寿 

希望他们可以参加我的婚礼 虽然现在还严重没谱儿

 

 

很累 最近 好多活儿

心里觉得好累 想歇着

孔子他老人家说 逝者如斯夫 不舍昼夜

我就想四仰八叉的搁床上躺着 啥也不干

 

太好了 终于能打开msn space了

貌似被封了挺长时间

 

哦 my 终于结束了过了那个黑色的啥啥日子  杂七杂八的想说说话了呢~~

 

1

作为园艺的学生 就这么被我错过了一个春天 哦 呀呀 我的花儿们

前几天有家眼镜店来学校 测了一下裸视 妈呀 又涨了200度

吓的我 赶紧开始做眼保健操

吓的我 直幻想自己戴着个厚度赛酒瓶底儿的镜片儿

吓的我 幻想去做角膜手术 医生说 "哇塞 根据这孩子的度数 直接切去角膜的一半儿厚度就得了"

 

2

黄洁说no more prison break 是啊 我的micheal scofield

这是大事儿 于是 只能从season 1 episode 1开始看起了

呕哈哈 偶哈哈

 

3

本来能在6月初去趟新疆 结果天煞的政治考试赶在中间儿 问东问西还是搞不定

也罢 随他 趁机好好弄弄开题

 

4

又是一年毕业时 又会有一批小p孩儿被丢进社会 亦或丢进实验室

80后已然成为社会的担当

 

5

很想大家 wh的 bj的孩子们

 

6

注意身体 尤其是安。。

定时锻炼

 

7

想学拉丁舞。。。

 

 

春日   大风   

看见花芽饱满   

晚上在二教 拿着红宝 厌学

又想到要生日了

嘿 真高兴

可以把朋友们都约出来

希望大家那天都没啥事儿

this year's birthday is coming

yet still half a month away

but my mom ask me if i want some present

pondering for a while

i have to say nothing particular

it seems like

i'm always keeping in a state of  having no desire and in want of nothing

superficial acturally

not ture

 

and what i what......i'm wondering

most probably the alleged the one

 

 

 

 

morning----Today is 19^th,Feb,2009, and BJ has a big-big-big snow this morning, when I open my curtain, so high, what in front of me makes me ecited~~  big-big snow, heavy-heavy snow which u can have a snow-fight(original chaglish).

 

 

I get up early this morning, not coz having set my alarmclock, but coz I’m anxious, again. Recently, ever since the very day I start to prepre G, negtive feelings begin grasp me from time to time, unregularly . So, it’s not the first time wake up early. and the extremist day,it’s 4 am,when wake up,2008, winter.

 

recognizing that regulation is badly needed, I decided to turn to some relavent books for help, bought form amazon.com(nice discount), some of which are of phsycogical, about how to dealing with depressing; some of which are of retrospection. Read in order to find some constant, lasting or even permernant driving forces, also to eliminate frustrations generated by G. L

 

And right on this early morning, it’s down to me that what makes me happy and what makes me anxious and brings me low spirits. Just within 2 mins, I offer my anwsors. It seems like those important anwsors hide in my mind for a long periods but I never discover it before.

 

what makes me happy?

my  family(or my beloved ones):   daddy, mom and  the legend "one” in the future.

 

helping others:    no dount, behaviors of helping others bring me happy and makes me feel that I’m doing sth meaningful, experiencing that I’m useful and sense of value.

 

sports:      yeah, coz I’m more likely to laugh, u know, especially sports involved more than one person, and I feel refreshed and be actived(feels like been turn on, no longer depressing, kicking away most of those invidious somber junk emotions).

 

What makes me anxious?

Learning , absolutely, learning puts me in great anxious. e.x., G, speech competition and exams. It’s not the question of attitude that I’ve been taking them too seariously, and posing a high expect. It’s the coward me who is afraid to face challenge. And sometimes i create and arrange some challenges actively to excersize. But still, I’m experiencing anxious emotions yet I describe this sort of anxious feelings postive ones. And I guess, now I’m dealing with the most chanllengeble challenge----G......

 

When it comes to the topic of negtive emotions, esp. anxious, I suddently start to think that why hardly have I anxious for other people? And I recall, recall, and recall. I rebember that, at least, I have been anxious for my dad and mom.

 

but what about beyond family members? What about my friends, for whom I’m willing to spend time, emotions, and energy? Pondering carefully, I find that among what my friend brings to me, the primary are positive influence, happyness, felicity, precious memories, reciprocal care, understanding of each other, sharing sorrow. most I list here, most I remenberd, are postive. And I’m wondering that why I sedon anxious for my friends when they r experiencing events important for themselves? Nor I’m not a friend good enough as I imagine.

 

I value chances and period that I have sth to say, u know, we r not idea-active most of the time, so I spend a hour to wirte it down, with which, I can see more clearly how I spend the irreversible time.

 

All we get is time

till one day we don’t have a next day

 

and

what makes u happy?                                            

what makes u anxious?                                         

enlist them and we r clear what is improtant~~

                                                 try it                             

me:

要转一个莲花的书评 因为认同

 

 

 "死亡是真相，突破虚假繁荣。它终究会让你明白，别人怎么看你，或者你自己如何地探测生活，都不重要。重要的是你必须要用一种真实的方式，度过在手指缝之间如雨水一样无法停止下落的时间。你要知道自己将会如何生活。"
　　 
这段话的核心词或者说核心意象是死亡与时间."死亡是真相".死亡是所有人共同的归宿.无论生命是繁华还是落寂.死亡都是人本质的规定,人逃不开的宿命.人,是"终有一死"者.死,意味着什么? 

 死,代表着时间的断裂.活着的人的时间会延续.所以,活着的人会筹划,面对着未来筹划现在的生活.同时也计算,计算得到与失去,并以此来衡量,作为生活中选择的依据.但"终有一死"才是人真正的未来.面对着未来筹划的人,仿佛是在面对无限的时间,他遗忘了死亡,直到死亡扑面而来的那一刻.若是面对着死亡筹划,你的生活将会如何过?庆昭曾直面死亡,她说:"我不知道自己会在何时死去.但是知道自己离它很近.如果你曾经与它擦身而过,就不会忘记它试图捕获你的触觉."死亡成了她眼前的事,她由此获得她的本质"向死而生".
　　

一个"向死而生"的人与一个"活着的人"一样要面对时间,"在手指缝之间如雨水一样无法停止下落的时间",如同河水一样向前流逝而不复返的时间.人度过时间的方式是生活,生活参差多态,给予人选择的权力."活着的人"选择在时间中计算得失的生活."向死而生"的人面对着灵魂生活,他与他的灵魂毗邻而居.就像庆昭,选择生活在西藏的一个小旅馆中."每天早上在走廊里熬煮中药，不发一言的古怪女子。身患疾病，不了了之，在拉萨无所事事地滞留。"这样远离俗世生活的庆昭观照着她的灵魂.面对着在高原矗立千年的拉萨,巍峨壮美的布达拉宫,等待了一千三百多年,只为与有缘人一期一会的桑耶大殿壁画,生活为她敞开了另一扇门.
　　

这样生活的灵魂无可避免会面对生命的终极问题:"生命的所做的一切都是为了什么?"这是<莲花>的核心问题之一.